It was just yesterday when I checked which section I belonged to. It seems like only a few hours ago, I entered the St. Cecilia classroom for the first time. Just three minutes ago, I had lunch as a Junior student with my friends. Now, only five days left, and it’s summer break. :(
how can I believe it. not even less than a week, and classes are over. I can’t say that I want it to end because I’m gonna miss everyone who were here for me, and made me feel special whenever I’m down. I don’t know why, but I’m glad there’s school :) not for learning, but for friends. I can’t imagine life not laughing ‘till I’m in tears, hanging out with people I cherish, and sometimes, feeling sad and worthless. Without those, my life wouldn’t be complete :( I hear people saying that they want high school to end, but not me. How am I supposed to get through college without Rachel’s panda obsessions and doodles, Hannah’s weird antics, Alecssa’s loud voice and laughter, Karlo’s deep profound words, jokes, and laughs, Patrick’s gluttony, Jana’s comments, Nina’s sweet kwentos, Vens’ emotions that seem to be contagious, and Arielle’s hugs? :( I’m not sure how I can live without FRIENDS and MCNK :( I know it’s weird that I’m thinking about this when there’s still senior year, but every year isn’t the same.
What if next year, everything would be different? I wouldn’t be classmates with my friends anymore, and I’ll be all alone? What if my parents move me to a different school, and I wouldn’t get to see them again? What if everything changes during summer break? What’s gonna happen? I hate all this uncertainty. :( I never want third year to end. So many unforgettable things happened, both happy and sad.
It was a roller coaster of emotions. Sometimes I’m up there, laughing and smiling my doubts away. Next thing I know, I’m crying and sobbing and quiet. but that’s how I’v learned to love life. all I have to do is expect the unexpected.
Third year life was probably one of the best things that happened to me. I got to experience both the happy and sad sides of love, did stuff I’ve never done before, tried to comfort a bullied friend, and found out what I was finally good at. Writing. :) I’ve also learned how to be independent when I started commuting. that I don’t need someone by my side to keep moving forward.
I really don’t want summer to come in to the picture. Summer is a long time. and with distance and time, there’s not much time to express what I feel onto this person. just when I had developed bits of feelings, that’s when summer barges in :( and that’s sad. but it’s okay :)
as peter pan said, "never say goodbye, because saying goodbye means going away. and going away means forgetting"